Begging God to deliver me from "self."
Trying to sit in silence while battling thoughts popping in and out of my head like popcorn in a microwave..........begging to be poured out so He can pour in....trying to stay awake while the rain falls against the windows and the colors of my life begin to fade.
I take my seat on the floor with a notebook and my bible...........not able to cease the thoughts of what lies ahead in the day. His presence overwhelms me and my breathing becomes the hard.........I beg him to speak.........but only His presence woos me and leaves me as fast as it comes.
I wonder what I did wrong? Was it my thoughts that won the moment?
I finally give in to my rages of mental battle...........and open up the Word and read the coming of the day of the Lord.
I read because He has said over and over again............SEEK.......SEEK ME FIRST!!!!!
And I have learned that if you need peace for the day it starts at daybreak with Him being the first. Remembering the way up is down.
They are not just idle words for you--they are your life. By them you will live long in the land you are crossing the Jordan to possess."(Deuteronomy 32:47)
So I read it because it is the eternal food that is everlasting;
Blow the trumpet in Zion;
sound the alarm on my holy hill.
Let all who live in the land tremble,
for the day of the LORD is coming.
It is close at hand—
2 a day of darkness and gloom,
a day of clouds and blackness.
Like dawn spreading across the mountains
a large and mighty army comes,
such as never was in ancient times
nor ever will be in ages to come.
3 Before them fire devours,
behind them a flame blazes.
Before them the land is like the garden of Eden,
behind them, a desert waste—
nothing escapes them.
4 They have the appearance of horses;
they gallop along like cavalry.
5 With a noise like that of chariots
they leap over the mountaintops,
like a crackling fire consuming stubble,
like a mighty army drawn up for battle.
6 At the sight of them, nations are in anguish;
every face turns pale.
7 They charge like warriors;
they scale walls like soldiers.
They all march in line,
not swerving from their course.
8 They do not jostle each other;
each marches straight ahead.
They plunge through defenses
without breaking ranks.
9 They rush upon the city;
they run along the wall.
They climb into the houses;
like thieves they enter through the windows.
10 Before them the earth shakes,
the heavens tremble,
the sun and moon are darkened,
and the stars no longer shine.
11 The LORD thunders
at the head of his army;
his forces are beyond number,
and mighty is the army that obeys his command.
The day of the LORD is great;
it is dreadful.
Who can endure it?
(Joel 2: 1-12)
Who can endure it?
Us if we can surrender our hearts.
Even now,” declares the LORD,
“return to me with all your heart,
with fasting and weeping and mourning.”
13 Rend your heart
and not your garments.
Return to the LORD your God,
for he is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and abounding in love,
and he relents from sending calamity.
14 Who knows? He may turn and relent
and leave behind a blessing—
grain offerings and drink offerings
for the LORD your God.
(Joel 2: 12-14)
He who is gracious..........compassionate........slow to anger...............and abounding in LOVE......
is saying..............."COME.................TAKE...................RECEIVE.....my grace.
Come to me..........(Matthew 11:28);
"His word come means "to act." Yet the last thing we want to do is come..........But everyone who does come knows that, at that very moment, the supernatural power of the life of God will invade you.....The dominating power of the world, the flesh, and the devil is now paralyzed; not by your act, but because your act joined you to God and tapped you into His redemptive power"......Oswald Chambers; My utmost for His highest.
Yes our redeemer lives!!!!
I fill my cup with coffee it's warmness invades me............it is raining hard..........it's a new season.....I end with a prayer of Thanksgiving..........I am empty no longer..........the house is starting to stir and I know that fullness will not last......that we have to feed on His flesh daily!
Watching the leaves fall like God's grace in the rain at daybreak, realizing that His grace truly does abound.
all of grace,
Robbie
