Enter his gates with thanksgiving,
and his courts with praise!
Give thanks to him; bless his name!
—Psalm 100:4
Every moment is an opportunity to praise Him......
I yearn for the coming of undone...........undone for Christ!
Holy ground is the everywhere......am I seeing? Seeing the ever-present God everywhere?
Every moment is a gift from God...So why then is it that I am not praising Him?
I walk in to work fast and hard..........trying to get there before I am late....I gently slide in my seat to listen to report from another nurse who is living the tired..........I look at her and smile and humbly speak....Is this an OK assignment? Knowing that I prayed the hard on my way in..........me the one who craves the easy..
After all I am feeling the boldness......I prayed............
As she proceeds to tell me one patient is the middle aged kind and has something growing in her lungs the unknown kind........ the sentence has been handed down.........two weeks..........
The color quickly drains out of my face as I go from the bold prayer warrior to the fearful me-ism....."what about me God?" Didn't I pray right? Didn't I pray hard enough? Why would you put me in this danger? I have a family!!!
The nurse tells the faith of the other patient whom is a 21 year old that is the sick of the sicks with unknown reasoning.....it could be a fatal disease as well...of unknown region......
My tongue starts the twitching of fire.........I am becoming overwhelmed......I ask with my head held low, are we treating this as contact precautions just in case?
She shakes her head the no........not the sure of what's taking them over and shutting down the organs but we are exposed...........
FEAR........my fair weathered friend..............welcome back I say....it's a never ending cycle...
Is God trying to kill me?
Exasperated over the report I slide down low in my chair wanting so badly to just disappear...
It feels like a roller coaster ride..........one minute bold, the next minute fear.........I want off this ride!
This is what God has assigned me.....after all I prayed!
This world is hard..........and then there is the death.......the dying kind..........must keep remembering.........there is life after death............this world is not the end!
Jesus is the gate.................cheering us on............looking to see a little faith!
God saw a different spirit in Caleb..................that is why he got to enter into the promise land........there was the something different with him........what spirit does God see in the me?
Caleb knew this was not the end..........that this world was not the end.........that there is the life that still to come......the forever life.....his life was mirroring the eternity! What does my life mirror? You will become the things you love.
Out of our fears the healing comes..........
Out of what seems to turn us back to Egypt is the very thing that builds our trust....
The very thing that tears us down is the beginning of our very own resurrection....
I stand in the noise of it all and I feel like a stranger to myself........the beeps, the sounds of all the monitors going crazy and I realize TRUST HIM................. even if we are placed in Babylon we must resolve....
renounce is the only way to grace....... and remembering the one who has placed me here is the God who loves me all the more for the not sparing me..
all of grace,
Robbie
thankful today;
for kids who keep me up way too late
for all my teenagers friends who are always at my house
high-school girls getting ready for prom at my house
the flip-flops on the front porch
the face prints on the shower door
the heart that was drawn on the back of my SUV with dirt
the husband who takes a walk with me
the dog who follows me from room to room
the dog bowls that never have water
clean clothes
a new vacuum
clean sheets
new grace and mercy
a chance to start over
