Monday, February 1, 2010

As I sit in my office with kids in the background playing in the house I decide to play one of my favorite songs by Kari Jobe, "The More I Seek You". I can get so lost in God's presence during this song that at times I feel it in my throat. The words to this song could not express more how I feel right now in my walk. I have fallen so completely inlove with God that I can't think sometimes. I get in my quiet place (the office), put on some praise music, and just get lost in His presence. I throw my head back, I cry out to Him for more and the more I cry the more God shows up. The more that I truly seek Him the more of Him I find and then I want to seek Him more and more. Sometimes I spend hours in here sitting in His presence, letting Him take me wherever He wants me to go...in the bible, listening to His voice, letting me cry, letting me unwind from the day, and simply ministering to my soul deep down to the marrow of my bones. God is so alive and so real and wants us to come and seek Him. He wants us to crawl up in His lap, lay our head on His chest, hear his heartbeat, and get lost in His presence. He does something to me when I am here. He fills me up to overflowing, He ignites a fire that was burnt out, He wipes away tears before they even fall sometimes, He smiles and listens and speaks.
Psalm 51:10 says to "create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me away from your presence, and do not take Your Holy Spirit from me."
God will create this in you, He will embrace you in His presence and the Holy Spirit will not leave your side if you seek Him..."Let all those who seek You rejoice and be glad in You;" (Psalm 40:16).
Listen to this song on our blog (it's the 3rd one I think)
The words to this song are:
The more I seek you
The more I find you.
The more I find you
The more I love you.
I wanna sit at your feet
Drink from the cup in your hand
Lay back against you and breathe
Hear your heart beat.
This love is so deep
Its more than I can stand
I melt in your peace
It's overwhelming.

These words become my words to the Father when I sing this. His love is so deep and sometimes I can barely stand in His presence. I do melt and become overwhelmed with God's presence sometimes. BUT I love Him so much that I want more of Him and I seek Him even more because of this.
I have found that love that I have searched for years for in my walk with God. He is here when I need Him and want Him. He is here the second I whisper His name. He is waiting on His child to call out to Him and when we do, our Heavenly Father pours out His love in so many ways to us.

The more I seek Him....the more I do find Him.
Melt in His peace...

Jennifer
Today one of the Yahweh sisters, Robbie, was able to meet with one of the pastors of her church. When we are going to start another bible study we do a lot of praying about which one God wants us to do. There can be a lot of "stress" on which one is the "right" one. Then there is the financial part of the video series (if there is one) that goes along with the studies. It's not easy to choose all of the time.
Now granted there are times when we know immediately what God wants us to do and then there are other times when we have no idea. So, today we got together and spent some time in the bible book store looking at different studies. There are some that look good, some that look like "meat" and some that look like "milk", some that look encouraging, some that are Holy Spirit driven, and then some that we just want to do. So which one?
Sometimes I think you just know that you know, but you analyze so many things that you double guess yourself. (Who will like it? Will they be able to keep up with it? Will they be disappointed because it's not like the past ones? Are they ready for this type of study? Is it just what WE want?)
And then, God puts people in your life like the Pastor Judi, that brings direction and encouragement in your decisions, and you realize that if you are obedient with what direction that God is taking you then all of the "other stuff" will fall into place. I think we knew what study we were supposed to do in that bible book store today, but the details worried us a bit and brought about confusion, and we know that our God is not a God of confusion.
But we prayed for God to direct us and He did. He allowed someone with a lot of biblical knowledge and expertise in this area to help guide us, to push us on in the right direction that we were headed.
Sometimes we all need a little push from wiser instruments in the Body of Christ.
God will take care of the details...We just have to be obedient to the direction that He is leading us.

So, ladies, GET READY. I believe that God is going to do some great things through this next study. I am excited and I pray that you are ready to dig into God's word.
We will be posting the name and dates of the next study soon so check back in with us.

Jennifer