Seeking......

Jeremiah 29:13

 You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart

Jeremiah 45:5;
Do you seek great things for yourself?
Asking my-self this hard question today....Do I really want to get to know God? Or am I only seeking for the things I can get?   As the world keeps spinning and the world keeps aching.....what is it that I am seeking?  
     I long to be a writer? For what? For the praise and attention of others? My tongue evades me....down to the core....of who I am.... I am living the sad today.....because I am the one who can't seem to see...blinded by my own me.....
     Writing helps me with my seeking.....the seeking of him....writing is the way that I find my way....my way to who I really am....down deep to the core.
Started the something new tonight with the family....scared what their reaction would be......wondered how these women-children would handle it?.....I know it seems funny that I would worry? But they have been raised in Babylon which has captivated them.....feels like I am fighting.....fighting a battle that I may never win....
I think about the people.......the people everywhere.....the living and the dying...........what do we all see?
Knowing that we see only what we want to see.......isn't it time to change our focus?
       Like a river that runs through..................the water everywhere................that comes.........glistening through...........little momemts........in life that glisten God's grace like sunlight on the water.
We come thirsty....and whisper more please..........more.........change us....change our focus.........make us see like you with your eyes.............
       and maybe all we need to do is to slow down.................slow our walk to really seek him.....and that's when we will truly see. 
all of grace,
Robbie

Psalm 63:1; You, God, are my God,

earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land
where there is no water.