On this valentines day; I can't help but think "God create in me a new heart!"
What is the moral and spiritual condtion of my heart? It will affect those around me...........I may fail in my own life and that is ok as long as I never falter in my desire for an ongoing relationship with Jesus............I want a faithful attitude toward God......I want a new heart created by the great physician.....a repentant heart.......forgive me Lord.......restore me....help me to resist the sin that is lurking at my back door.........
And God says to me; "My Grace is sufficient for you.............................for my power is made perfect in weakness.......
As I got up this morning and went into the kitchen this is what I found.......He always thinks of our girls..........Our youngest (Ellie,) rushes right in to open her card up from the man she admires most.....she says;( "mom did you read my card? It sounds just like me!")
Taking the time to smell the sweet things in life and remembering to be self-less.........just like God who was so self-less to send his own son.......to take upon himself the sins of the world......
I am blessed beyond words.........................
As we shared our coffee this morning after the girls had gone to school.....I thought of how many transitions and changes that have come in this lifetime.....for everyone.......We pass from one season to the next.....and ultimately, like it or not, life will eventually shift to death.................Life is a constant state of change....the girls are getting older......Our oldest will graduate from high-school in two years......We have another starting high school in the fall.....and our youngest will start middle school.......changes like it or not keep coming.......
So how do I handle these changes? Do I fall apart when faced with a new path or choice? Do I stay faithful and close to God through prayer and the study of His word? 
No-one knows how much time we have on this earth......but while I am here am I laying down self? Am I showing mercy to my eniemies? What about to the ones I love the most? My family?
He has always strengthen me to the core of who I am........Love is not all about the passion......it is the heartbeat of selflessness..............Love involves the laying down of self, laying down the need to always being right.....laying down the pride.......and laying down the arrogance.........Looking at my cup half full today........instead of half empty...........trying to honor God by being the wife he asks me to be.....asking God for the gift of humiliation today......which brings a softness of heart.......a gift that will cause me to pause and listen...........listen to God.....
wanting so badly to be forever changed;
his grace,
Robbie
