Door to Door

They always come the unexpected.................and it's me who screams...........who am I the woman with the unclean lips......who lives my life like I am the centered.
Letting my emotions guide me............. like I can handle it ...........after all I am the one anchored in God's word.

Isaiah 6:5-6

⁵ “Woe to me!” I cried. “I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty.”
⁶ Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar.

It looked like a comedy show somehow as I stumbled and mumbled to answer their questions about the Trinity............ They twisted and turned even my thoughts and I felt myself hot under breath wanting to run as fast as I could to the Saviour's arms. As their words fell my throat lumped...........and I said "JESUS," where are you? They explained that the "Trinity," was built by pagan's back in the day............ Are you kidding me? I gasped as I tried to hang on..........I felt my world spin..........and then it was me who was the confused!

²⁴ For false messiahs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect.
Matthew 24:24

They handed me a little book and told me that "Jesus," sent them my way to help me understand the bible.......................... the bible is so confusing and difficult............."let us help you!"

I murmured it softly........."I don't think I need help understanding the Bible...........I have the Holy Spirit living in me.

1 John 2:27

²⁷ As for you, the anointing you received from him remains in you, and you do not need anyone to teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about all things and as that anointing is real, not counterfeit—just as it has taught you, remain in him.

Something in me deep realized how fragile we really are and I simply cracked wide open as the water started to fall. I felt shredded........with bits of fragments of me sweeping away.
"What if I am wrong and they are right?"  I am not as closely identified with Christ as I thought.

After they leave it is me who falls right down on my knees and pleads for the Lord to show me truth...........it is then with the WORD Himself that I truly start to see. The scales begin to fall and they continue to fall for weeks. I break out of darkness...........the truth is revealed by the light. They had one thing right; they were sent by Jesus himself but for a different reason:  For the collapse of my independence.......to the SURRENDERING of my life to the SUPREMACY of the LORD JESUS.

     God can only bring us to the point but........ he can't push us through it.
He is breaking my outer layer of my individual INDEPENDENCE!  He is asking...........you and I............Do we want it? 
The dying to self .........to our false sense of self........... so that we may become one with Him?  Oneness with the Father! I must stop relying on me, me, me........and not following the ideas of man...........but the utmost loyalty to Him.  If we get to this point there will be no confusion.

Proverbs 3:5;
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding


Colossians 2:8;
See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ.


     He who died for me is breaking my independence..........Everything else is just me being a "want a be"= "Religious Fraud."  I must be broken from myself......and when that happens supernatural power will come my way and the witness of the SPIRIT OF GOD will be UNMISTAKABLE.  I will be truly CRUCIFIED with CHRIST!

He is gathering brokens fragments of me..........and of you.......placing them back together like a beautiful piece of Mosaic art- a patchwork of people, places, times, and cultures- that depicts ONE person;  JESUS CHRIST! A flash of recognition has transformed my life as the world whirls and we spin too............how important it is to see............that the body of Christ is much bigger than the small pieces we experience in our everyday lives.

Galatians 2:20

²⁰ I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.


The salvation that comes from God is not based on human logic........but on the sacrificial death of Jesus Christ.


all of grace,
Robbie

Worthy is the Lamb

Psalms 51:10

"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me."

Psalms 51:12

"Grant me a willing spirit"

Ecclesiastes 5

" Guard your steps"

"Do not be quick with your mouth, do not be hasty in your heart to utter anything before God."

"God is in heaven and you are on earth, so let your words be few."

I remember several times growing up- during a hard time- I needed God. I did not realize it then, but my spirit longed for God. I would open my bible and look at the pages. I looked at the words, but I didn't really read any of it. I would flip through the pages and eventually find the shortest chapter and grab a few words off the page- trying to get full. Just as easy as I opened the bible, I closed it. Well I tried, I thought. Maybe I did feel better after reading. I grew up in a Christian home. I knew how to pray, and I knew that if I needed God- that he was always there. But what did I give back to God- nothing. I went to church every time the doors were open- cause I had too. I participated in devotions - because I had too. I prayed because- I had too. If it did not benefit me- I didn't do it. I faked the part of a Christian girl. I went to church willingly- cause I liked a boy in my Sunday School class. 

Now grown up- I realize how blessed I was- how blessed I am.

God protected me all those years- he protects me now.

I open the bible now, and every word touches me- grabs me and wont let go.

How can I read his word, and still fail- still sin- still fall.

I have wasted so much time- time that I could have spent building his kingdom, but too busy worrying about me, or things that concern me.

How mighty is our God. How patient is our God. How blessed are we that proclaim his name.

He is so worthy to be praised. I will lift up his name.

As I tucked in my boys tonight- I thanked God- Thanked him for an uneventful day. One with no injuries- bad notes from school- trouble with friends.

Did I make a difference today in someones life? Did someone see Jesus in me.

I don't know.

I met a women at the nail salon- her husband was in the unit where I worked recently. Did I make a difference in her life- letting her see Jesus in me?

I helped one of the teachers today. Did I share Jesus with her? Or did I watch the clock and pray that the time on the clock would speed up.

Why is it so hard, to share what I know- what I learn in my daily bible reading.

Am I too busy- I sometimes cram bible reading in- like I am reading cliff notes before a book report. Just give me the basics- just to pass the test.

Is that what I want to do- just enough to get into heaven- as long as I am there right?

That thought stings my soul.

I have so much and I give so little.

Father- Give me a glance with your eyes- let me see what you see. How you could come to earth, just because- just because you loved me first.

Let me show your love through my actions and words. Let my words be few, but my actions be many for you.

And let your name be praised.

I want to be an awesome fruit bearing branch,

Amy

The Vine- John 15

⁵ “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. (John 15:5)

THE VERY SPIRIT OF THE VINE IS LOVE

Do you ever wonder if you are bearing fruit when your dishes are piled the high and the laundry is never done?  It's ground-hog day once again for me!

It's then that I wonder if I am truly connected..................It's simple really the branch grows out of the vine..........it lives there and grows......it has no responsibility except to RECEIVE the sap and nourishment from the root and stem.

It is days like these that seem so repetitive that I ask myself; "Am I really connected?"
If the sap is being received there will be fruit.  If there is no sap then there is NO CONNECTION! 

As I glide up the stairs to the tornado of the teens rooms..... I wonder if I will really miss this? Miss the emptying of the trash...........the making of beds..........the laundry that is never done.  Maybe it is me who is not the crucified with Christ!
Do I really want to be?   Who wants to stay the broken?
But HE has ordered our steps? So what have I sold my life out too?  Is it things?  A cleaner house?
Jesus poured the truth of God's word into his disciples...................and He sent the Holy Spirit from the Father. He was telling them how to stay connected.  Why is the flesh so strong? It is all out war-fare.
Do I really want to be connected?


There are 3 stages of fruit bearing:

1)  In stage one you are connected and are receiving sap but not fruit bearing like you should.
This is where 60-70 percent of all Christians stay!!!
This is also where you feed your flesh............you even feel at times that something your doing is not right but you do it anyway....By your sin many are defiled.  The rebuking starts in this stage as well:

Hebrews 12: 5-6
My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline,
and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,
⁶ because the Lord disciplines the one he loves,
and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son.”^[a]

There is conviction in this stage and you may even stop for a while but discouragement rears it's ugly head.....and it's a cycle that never seems to end.


2)  In stage 2 is where the pruning happens....Testing can even become intense. Trails are brought your way by God himself as He does the pruning. He starts to cut away the temporal things in your life. He wants the eternal views instilled. He is saying:  "worship only me!"

Deuteronomy 5:7-8;

⁷ “You shall have no other gods before^[a] me.
⁸ “You shall not make for yourself an image in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below.

Your habits you have developed over the years determine now determine your priorities.....You come to a fork in the road.......... which path will you take?  The eternal or the temporal?

This is where most Christians that have made it to this stage turn and run back to stage 1.  This is where we need to pray for God to plant our feet on solid ground!!! To remain before him BROKEN!
If you hang on this is where He will bring you out of the firey furnace as His Trophy of Grace!

¹⁹ The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; ²⁰ idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions ²¹ and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God. (Galatians 5: 19-21)

God is telling us to let go of our baggage!!! Sometimes I feel like I treasure my sin! I don't want to let go.

3) The last stage is all about the Savior. This is about you running to His arms and Him being FIRST in your life. This is about you being and not about doing!
This is where you finally SURRENDER!  Setting ourselves apart........guarding our hearts and our minds at all times.....with the eternal view in mind at all times! Most Christians will never experience the gift........of such PEACE.  This is where He gives us what we need...........not what we want!

Set today apart from other days...........say it out loud:  ABSOLUTE SURRENDER to you Lord is what I have choose!

God is trying to get our attention!!!
THE BRANCH IS CALLING YOU AND ME TO ABSOLUTE SURRENDER!

Let your surrender to Christ be absolute. Cry out!!! Time is short!


all of grace,
Robbie


so thankful to God for:

the opportunity to be broken
Jesus
crumbs on the floor
clogged toilets again
sun glistening through the trees
leaves changing colors
peace
a pastor that teaches the word
friends that show up unexpected to visit your church
forgiveness
long talks after church with the teens
an extra hour of sleep

Weekends are made for light

All of grace is because Jesus is our all in all, and His grace is free...........it is the eternal light that gives us the very breath we breath! There is no life like the one lived in the light of Christ.

May your weekend be one of

walking in the light........thinking only of the eternal instead of the temporal

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." (John 8:12)

all of grace,

the Yahweh Sisters

Come to me

    It was 4:45 am this morning when I went straight into the Throne Room with aching prayers.
Begging God to deliver me from "self." 

Trying to sit in silence while battling thoughts popping in and out of my head like popcorn in a microwave..........begging to be poured out so He can pour in....trying to stay awake while the rain falls against the windows and the colors of my life begin to fade.

I take my seat on the floor with a notebook and my bible...........not able to cease the thoughts of what  lies ahead in the day.  His presence overwhelms me and my breathing becomes the hard.........I beg him to speak.........but only His presence woos me and leaves me as fast as it comes.
I wonder what I did wrong?  Was it my thoughts that won the moment? 

I finally give in to my rages of mental battle...........and open up the Word and read the coming of the day of the Lord.

I read because He has said over and over again............SEEK.......SEEK ME FIRST!!!!!
And I have learned that if you need peace for the day it starts at daybreak with Him being the first. Remembering the way up is down.

They are not just idle words for you--they are your life. By them you will live long in the land you are crossing the Jordan to possess."(Deuteronomy 32:47)


So I read it because it is the eternal food that is everlasting;

Blow the trumpet in Zion;
sound the alarm on my holy hill.
Let all who live in the land tremble,
for the day of the LORD is coming.
It is close at hand—
² a day of darkness and gloom,
a day of clouds and blackness.
Like dawn spreading across the mountains
a large and mighty army comes,
such as never was in ancient times
nor ever will be in ages to come.
³ Before them fire devours,
behind them a flame blazes.
Before them the land is like the garden of Eden,
behind them, a desert waste—
nothing escapes them.
⁴ They have the appearance of horses;
they gallop along like cavalry.
⁵ With a noise like that of chariots
they leap over the mountaintops,
like a crackling fire consuming stubble,
like a mighty army drawn up for battle.
⁶ At the sight of them, nations are in anguish;
every face turns pale.
⁷ They charge like warriors;
they scale walls like soldiers.
They all march in line,
not swerving from their course.
⁸ They do not jostle each other;
each marches straight ahead.
They plunge through defenses
without breaking ranks.
⁹ They rush upon the city;
they run along the wall.
They climb into the houses;
like thieves they enter through the windows.
¹⁰ Before them the earth shakes,
the heavens tremble,
the sun and moon are darkened,
and the stars no longer shine.
¹¹ The LORD thunders
at the head of his army;
his forces are beyond number,
and mighty is the army that obeys his command.
The day of the LORD is great;
it is dreadful.
Who can endure it?
(Joel 2: 1-12)


Who can endure it? 
Us if we can surrender our hearts.



Even now,” declares the LORD,
“return to me with all your heart,
with fasting and weeping and mourning.”
¹³ Rend your heart
and not your garments.
Return to the LORD your God,
for he is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and abounding in love,
and he relents from sending calamity.
¹⁴ Who knows? He may turn and relent
and leave behind a blessing—
grain offerings and drink offerings
for the LORD your God.
(Joel 2: 12-14)

He who is gracious..........compassionate........slow to anger...............and abounding in LOVE......
is saying..............."COME.................TAKE...................RECEIVE.....my grace.
Come to me..........(Matthew 11:28);


"His word come means "to act."  Yet the last thing we want to do is come..........But everyone who does come knows that, at that very moment, the supernatural power of the life of God will invade you.....The dominating power of the world, the flesh, and the devil is now paralyzed; not by your act, but because your act joined you to God and tapped you into His redemptive power"......Oswald Chambers; My utmost for His highest.
Yes our redeemer lives!!!!

I fill my cup with coffee it's warmness invades me............it is raining hard..........it's a new season.....I end with a prayer of Thanksgiving..........I am empty no longer..........the house is starting to stir and I know that fullness will not last......that we have to feed on His flesh daily!

Watching the leaves fall like God's grace in the rain at daybreak,  realizing that His grace truly does abound.

all of grace,
Robbie

Abide

The Cove.............a place of inspiration. Where the agenda belongs to God!

While in the beautiful mountains in Asheville, NC......... Amy and I had to sit in silence and draw near to the King. We prayed for a transformation of our hearts. It was there on the mountain that the Lord himself took me to a deep, dark , cold place!

  ³⁴ “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. ³⁵ By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”  John 13: 34-35.

I decided to hike up as far as I could and pray along the way for the perfect spot to spend time with God. After an hour of hiking and praying...........I came to a place where I felt in my spirit I needed to stop and pray.
As I was standing at the edge of a ledge.........trying to breath.......the sun warming my face.....it was then that I saw it.................the blackest...........deadest forest in the whole 1600 acres.
      Fear (my old faithful friend) ran through my body............me trying to breath..........it was at that moment I begin to understand what the Holy Spirit was showing me........that I must truly die..................die to self..............die to my will................and surrender my all.
The FEAR...................did I really have to die?
     Maybe it was the dead everywhere.................was how my life was supposed to be? Me dead to self? 
Something is holding me back................from the dying. What is it that I can't let go of ?  Is it me in my me-ism little world screaming please..........more of the easy? (Anything that you put before God is an idol.)

How can I become the one with Him........when I can't even let go and surrender? Is there such a thing as abide?

As I lay on my back wrestling with;  "who am I really?".......Praying my heart could be his altar. It was then I could hear deep down in my soul..............SEEK.....SEEK.............SEEK......SEEK me with the all of you.

What is the pleasure of Christ?


Am I seeking only..............to have God's blessings while I live my own life?

I can feel the wind starting to whip...........the leaves are falling...........it is then all alone in the mountains...............where God himself has taken me.....a place where the trees are dead...........that I cry out to God:
"LORD, keep me from EVERY sin.

The branches are swaying to the rhythm of the wind..............and they are calling..............me and you to an ABSOLUTE SURRENDER! He wants possession = unbroken fellowship.......by abiding in him.
                                                               Death = Resurrection

Why do I hold myself captive?...................Is it because I don't want to be the FREE?  Refusing to give up my will..............  Scared of disappointing the King?  I crave the easy remember.........spiritual laziness it seems. Pipe dreams I tell myself..........I am just a want a be!

¹⁴ We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. ¹⁵ I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. ¹⁶ And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. ¹⁷ As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. ¹⁸ For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.^[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. ¹⁹ For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. ²⁰ Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
²¹ So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. ²² For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; ²³ but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. ²⁴ What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? ²⁵ Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!  (Romans 7: 14-25) 


        The more we die to self.........................the deeper our peace.
To die to self is to embrace God's will.  After all aren't all Christians the walking dead? Crucified and dead.............unknowing, at the time of birth partaking of His death............ but alive in Christ!
So why do we believers run from our death and ressurection?  Because our greatest enemy in this life is our very own SELF!!!!!! 


The heart beat of the old me can thump in and out like there never was a death..........it is war for my very own soul. But those nail pierced hands are waving to us saying........"Are you ready? Ready to give up SELF to death?  To give up self entirely to death on the cross to be kept there until self is wholly brought under the power of Christ?

Yes abiding does exist...........but to truly abide in Christ.........prepare..........to part from self,
aka....(FLESH)  FOREVER!!!!!
(Praise God that in the middle of all the dead trees were tiny sprouts of green life coming up through the deadness!!!!!)
all of grace,
Robbie

faith building

" Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil prowls about like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. But resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same experiences of sufferings are being accomplished by your brethren who are in the world."  1 Peter 5 : 8-9

Be alert
Be watchful
Be clear-minded

Satan knows our weakness- we rarely hide them- we whine and cry to others about them. So why wouldn't Satan use them against us, and to his advantage.

James 4:7- " Submit yourselves to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"

In order to submit yourselves to God and resist the devil- you have to stay in his word and pray. Spend time with him.

My trials will not be yours- Each trial we face, depends on our strength. God tells us in his word, that he will not give  us more than we can handle.

James 1:13

" Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God, for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempted any man

God does not have evil in  him. Satan  uses tests and trials to steal us from God and what he says in his word.

Mark 4:15

" Satan cometh immediately, and taketh away the word that was sown in their heart."

I feel "most alert" and ready for  the trials of the day, when I get up early and dive into his word- or simply sit still in his presence.

I am a busy mom- of three boys

A wife

A nurse in a Cardiac ICU

So.... I am busy...... But what I have prayed for in the last couple weeks, is for God to show me how to slow down, keep my eyes on him- to be a better mom and wife. Not to waste my energy, more that is required, at work or on other things, but to focus on my family.

I put on my June Clever mask and with a smile on my face- wait for the day.

Well the first day- my oldest son woke up at 4:30 am throwing up, not in the bathroom, but on the carpet. Not in his room, but in his brother's room and in the hall.

The June Clever in me left and I fussed as I cleaned up puke! " Why did you walk through the bathroom - to throw up in your brother's room?

Yesterday I was spending some time with my friend- we went to hobby lobby- we had been there for thirty minutes, when the school calls and tells me that my eight year old had knocked out three of his permanent teeth while at recess.

Why ?   

I ask

But every thing happens for a reason. My kids have their health, so do we. On the way to school I thanked God for this minor thing. It was  hard to pray, but I did. In the  middle of my pity party, my son got a phone call from a school friend. The one that Andrew prayed with during lunch detention one day. This friend asked Jesus into his heart that day, but that friend was the only one to stay on the playground and look for the teeth, and also to call and check on him after the accident.

God's ways are not ours, and I also put out a "all Prayer" that the root of the front teeth re-attach and become strong again. I talked with Andrew - my youngest without teeth- or at least without all of the teeth.

That there is POWER IN PRAYER.

He agreed with me and we prayed. We felt the prayer from others. I felt them and I know Andrew did.

Amy