Thursday, March 29, 2012

grace from God

Come a morning in early spring with birds chirping and trees glistening I think
 back to New Year's eve..........how I wanted 2012 to be the different;
  "My mind was racing before the clock struck 12...... with a twinkle of fear; wondering what was ahead!"
In a world where right seems wrong;   Is there is still a glimmer of HOPE?

I think about my life and the years gone by and how I have wasted.......... valuable time. I look at my youngest who is already 12 savoring the moments because she still enjoys our family time..........while the others scurry and dress seeking pleasure from the world.

I think about the fast pace of this world and wonder why? Why does He drop Grace right out of the sky?

Our life is like a picture book............but only He can see the ending with all our days being the numbered.

In the weeks to come there will be many paths to take.....................and maybe I am crazy to think like this but wouldn't the world spin a little better if we all smiled a little more? What does my face say about me? What does your face say about you?

In a world that is the broken...... His light is still shining through disasters,  turmoil
 hunger.............. through sickness...............and even in death.....if only we could see with spiritual eyes.

The Creator who took on flesh to be with His creation..............to save us from ourselves.
Grace always precedes sin............the Word himself makes sure......grace..........grace..... more than enough for our every need.

And just maybe it is us that has been chosen for such a time as this!
Be careful making friends with the Holy Spirit because He will ask you to die!

It happened when I went to a prayer retreat last October..... the King Himself sat me in front of a dead, barren forest............He was asking me to die! I said I was ready but I haven't yet(died to self).........I can't seem to let go..........to surrender the all of me...............I have continued to give Him only a piece of me.  It's my soul I have held onto the longest.  He sat me in front of the most dead.......... dark place I have ever seen.......It was strange I could actually feel darkness.... coldness..........and he was showing me that the darkness was me and my sins! 
But if you looked close through the darkness in various places were these beautiful green sprouts of life. Although dead and dark new life was beginning to sprout up!

I often wonder when I return in a year........ will it still be cold, dark and barren?

So far I have spent 2012 wanting change that only comes from the inside................longing for transformation...............but continuing to live broken in all the wrong places!

It is true that every spring has new blooms............but what will I find when I return to the picture of my very own soul?  Life has a way of causing you to want to give up sometimes even shaking your fists in the air.........."screaming what are you doing to me?"   Sometimes the road less traveled looks like it is never-ending.

And when I think back to that...... cold.....dark.........barren...place........ it is then that His grace falls right out of the sky and says...."what looks dead may be dormant for a season"............"and what is barren.....may be about to explode with new life".............."and somehow this wild barren me may bloom new life this spring!"



Isaiah 43:19


19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
 Even wild things bloom............the dark will become light...........and in His will is where we will find our peace!
Hold on..........revival can be messy............it can hurt.........but when we resurface it will be His beauty perfected!
all is well because wild things do bloom,

Robbie


asking for grace please in New York this week with the oldest tween for her 17 birthday present......then on to the beach for a week with 12 tweens for spring break.