Tuesday, May 31, 2011

The road less traveled.....


John 7:38;
"He who believes in Me, as scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water."


Trying to find who I really am...........not the mom, the wife, or the nurse with all the obligations....but deep down to the core..............the real me the essence of who I really am.


Out of  the busyness of the day...........His grace is tugging.........tugging deep within my soul.
to sit a spell and think about who I am? As I rock..........I see.........and I feel.
The light of the day is warm...........the beauty all around us is a gift.
God can only find me when the old me is the dead.

     Sometimes the old me wants to live.......... wants me to travel down the path of the way it used to be........the young the carefree.
Back to the being............the being of a little girl when the parents were the young and the never wondering of  who I was.
Haven't traveled the road from where I came for the many years...............happy to just hold on to the memories.




I  can still remember the "Granny," walking around in the yard like it was the yesterday.........knowing even if I traveled down that road to the familiar that there would be the nothing left but the green house with the tiny carport..............and mostly the overgrown mess........Nothing ever stays the same........there is always change.
Can we go back down the road less traveled? That takes us back to our roots of who we are?
I am in search of who I am? Maybe it's the me who needs the seeing...........the seeing of where I came from again to really know.......to know who I have become in Christ!





The years fade and the years continue to pass on by............can you really ever go back?
Going back will never be the same.............people change and memories fade.............what was is no longer the now.
We all have a past............memories that are etched in our brains.......to remember where it is we came from is to remember who we are.
The roads less traveled is not what leads us to the now............to the who we are in Christ!
Time moves on and so do we.
Maybe its the now life that we should focus.............focus on the looking.... out of the windshield instead out of the rear-view mirror.
Maybe the past needs to stay in the past and maybe it's the future that holds the secret.........the secret to the who I am!
And it's the Father who is the already knowing..........knowing my name and the who I really am.
One who is saved by grace.
all of grace,
Robbie


Thankful today for:
the used cups that are always in the teenagers rooms
spring cleaning
for flipped mattress
 cleaning out closets
piles of books everywhere
for teens that always slam the front door
for fresh cut green grass
for a husband who works the hard
for the fish that no-one ever feeds
for the crumbs in the kitchen