Tuesday, August 17, 2010

I am back home in Charlotte and I have reflected many times on what God has done and what He is doing in me over the past few months and especially days. I let the thought of "what am I doing?" go through my mind at least once during the day, and most of the time it's a lot more. Or I wonder, "am I on track?". I can get so caught up in what is happening around me that I worry that I'm not where I need to be with God at that time. I know that I will always have areas to grow in and be strengthened in, but I want to know if where I am at RIGHT now is where I am supposed to be RIGHT now.
Do you ever do that?

Then, just when I start to question things around me, I will hear a voice or experience a situation that shows me that I am where I need to be for now. I think my biggest problem is taking on too many things at the same time and I can get overloaded with the busyness of them all. Are you following me?
I will be doing one thing at work, another with my children, another with ministry, and another with school....and all at the same time...and then wonder, "what does God have for our family? for me and Don? What is it He has mapped out for our personal life?"
I think way too much about STUFF.
A woman at the luncheon this weekend spoke the most beautiful words to me. She was one of those women that had been on this earth for 80 something years, and you knew that she had seen a lot in her years. You knew that she was a woman of God when she walked up to you...you could sense His love and see His eyes as she looked at you. I knew at that moment that she knew what I felt, that she "got me" and that it made sense and that it was okay and it was right. She spoke and instead of hearing a voice from an 80 something year old woman...I heard the voice of God speaking to me....speaking life into my craziness and my wondering.
No, I cannot share what the lady said...mainly because I cannot remember word for word what it was and I do not want to mess it up...just trust me that He knew at that moment what I needed to hear and God used her as a vessel to pour those words through to me.
Let's stop worrying so much about what the day or weeks to come are going to be consumed with...because we can get overwhelmed with it all. Let's just take it moment by moment. God will direct your path. He will tell you when to turn and when to stay straight. We have to wait and look for those voices that He uses sometimes to direct us.
I had a wonderful time this past weekend in Amelia Island but the reality of it all is that I am called to be here in Charlotte for now doing all of the craziness that I am doing. I can't wait to see what and where God calls us to next. Until then, I will remain in prayer and openness to the days ahead.
God bless you as you encounter more of God as you seek more of Him.