Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Eye Protection

Be careful little eyes what you see,
be careful little eyes what you see,
for the father up above is looking down in love,
 oh be careful little eyes what you see.
Singing this song when I was young, taught me that I was responsible for what I did with my body.
Not only are we to guard our hearts, but our minds, our eyes, our ears. I feel like I would be better off living in a bubble.

Proverbs 4:23-27
" Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. Keep your mouth free of perversity, keep corrupt talk far from your lips. Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you. Give careful thought to the paths for your feet and be steadfast in all your ways. Do not turn to the right or the left, keep your foot from evil.

I rarely eat lunch in the break room at work. It is usually too busy to actually sit down and enjoy your lunch, watch a little TV, etc. But today was different, It was actually a pretty good day, one that included lunch in the break room.
I went to the cafeteria with a couple other nurses. We grabbed our lunch, and rushed back upstairs. Especially cause we could be called back into the unit at any time.
The TV was already on, half the time you cant find the remote and you just watch whatever is on.
Well of course it was a talk show- with every thing a Christian women should stay away from. I sat there- actually kinda entertained from the mess of their lives. There were prostitutes, pimps, their families, their friends. etc.
I have to admit that I did feel a little conviction, but who knew where the remote was and I wasn't the only one in the room.
So I sat there and laughed at these people air their dirty laundry all over day time TV.
I should be ashamed!!!
Some of the comments my coworkers expressed- should have made me blush, but it didn't. I sat right there and ate my lunch and participated in sin.
Then a 22 year old, Christian man- coworker- walked in. saw what was on the TV- actually heard the evil- heated up his lunch and walked out. He must have taken his lunch into the unit to eat.
Probably to get away from the sin.
I felt terrible- convicted. How can I be so weak. We are suppose to be an example to others, but why is it so hard.
I didn't say anything to him at first, I waited a week- then I apologised for staying and participating in that mess.
He actually thanked me- full understanding- and stated that he felt guilty for even staying to heat up his food. He was glad that I expressed by conviction. How lonely it is to walk with Jesus. We need to stick together and be the light to this dark and miserable world.
How could God use a 22 year old to witness to me- It should be the other way around. I am usually so quick to point out another who sins, when I should be on my knees worrying about myself
I know that we are human and are suppose to learn from our mistakes, but why is it so hard.
I did ask our father, Yahweh, for forgiveness. That I was sorry for being so weak. And prayed for strength.
I pray to be a witness - to show a Godly example- to show the love of Christ. I pray for another chance to be strong and be a witness to others.
In his service.